Hate feelings sometimes!

Some days are worse than others.  I've always been a very sincere friend & have expected the same. It just feels like at times I'm the forgotten one.  Weeks upon weeks.  When I make friends, honest to God true friends, it's for a lifetime as long as they don't use me for their personal gain & hurt others (that's really hard to forgive).  I want to know about their lives, feelings, and everything. And, I want them to want to know about mine. But, maybe that isn't possible, maybe it's too much.  I however know I have my one constant, Kelly. A girl just sometimes needs a girlfriend to talk, complain, cry, or just bs with.